| I don't like |
[12 Apr 2009|01:46pm] |
this blog anymore. Haha!
I feel like I've outgrown everything I've written here specially the ones that date back to sophomore year. It's funny to read old archives though. :))
We were so young, and so INNOCENT, at times.. :))
Time to get a new blog :))
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| I have absolutely.. |
[12 Jan 2009|05:22am] |
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No college,
No future,
No anything, as of now.
But I prayed and I can't help but rely on the fact that He makes me feel like everything's gonna be alright.
(that sounds gay, but at times like these, I don't think I trust anything else.) No more slacking off, no more late night outs, no more unnecessary takases,
Cause while everyone is throwing this term away, I'm gonna have to make this term the best.
Wish me luck. :)
Here we go. :)
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| cause i was never as fluent in fucking up.. |
[08 Jan 2009|06:07pm] |
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World,
I have never felt as useless and meaningless as I do now.
Must you be so kind,
to shove down my throat those 2 little words that you know can make or break me?
cause it broke me, broke me so bad,
and it hurt me, hurt me so fucking bad.
This week has been the worst, and no one will know exactly how it feels.
The smile I'm wearing is so worn out,
and I'm tired of pretending like I'm alright.
No matter what anyone says, or no matter what anyone does, I don't think there's any plausible scenario or situation that would make me feel any better.
I'm 2 days away from knowing.
If this will be the BEST,
or WORST
January of my life.
I screwed up the 16th,
so much for my 17th.
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| thank you |
[13 Nov 2008|10:24pm] |
for putting all the pieces back together,
and crushing every single one of them
twice as much as he did before.
ouch. i hate this freaking feeling in my chest.
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| because |
[11 Nov 2008|06:56pm] |
i always wanted a crazyperfectawesomeamazingridiculous kind of love.
and it sucks to know i'll never have it..
not with anyone.
:(
hello, single me.
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| on the 24th, |
[04 Nov 2008|07:15pm] |
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i want to know how it feels like,
all
over
again.
(i feel so brand new)
:)
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| when it all goes down |
[26 Oct 2008|01:05pm] |
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i want you to know..
that you're gonna get found out either way.
pretty soon. :)
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| :* |
[09 Oct 2008|08:08pm] |
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i think im happ.. happ.. happy again :)
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| the way you look at me |
[20 Sep 2008|11:11pm] |
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the way you touch me
the fire in your eyes
i swear it makes me shiver inside
;)
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| it hurt so fucking much |
[15 Sep 2008|12:35am] |
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that it drained the life out of me.
but when i woke up, i felt my soul coming back to me
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| "the perks of being a wallflower" |
[06 Sep 2008|01:19pm] |
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when was the last time you were truly happy?
like so happy that it gave you fucking chills and you couldn't ask for a better place to be?
last time you felt infinite?
it's sad how..
it always takes so much now to make us all happy.
a real sign we are growing up.
someone tell me they're still happy, too..
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| every minute with you i feel like i can do anything. |
[02 Sep 2008|11:37pm] |
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You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
thank you.
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| i heard this song |
[12 Jul 2008|08:32pm] |
and it super reminded me of you
"could you think it over,
when we get older?
i still want you here with me
darling i hope that you agree
there's something that takes place whenever we embrace"
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| FRIENDS LISTEN UP :) |
[29 Jun 2008|07:24pm] |
i honestly think we should all get back on the LJ high.
i miss reading about how you guys are. and hearing all your kwentos.
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[12 Jun 2008|12:52am] |
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senior year!
clean slate.
fresh start.
with no nothing to hold me back.
yo.
damn.
fuck.
awesome.
GOOD TIMES :)
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[30 May 2008|09:32pm] |
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for the mistakes we keep on making,
and the lessons we keep on learning.
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| i thought i would never. |
[12 Mar 2008|08:48pm] |
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first,
it was crying, failing, trying, dying, sacrificing
(and believe me, it only goes so far,
as some things, no matter how hard you try to gain them back,
are really, simply put, not meant for you, maybe not right now,
or maybe not ever.)
second,
it was waiting.
(because you tell yourself, it might come back if i wait long enough,
and you convince yourself that time is
your only ally.)
third, *which is the hardest
it was hurting
(and you think that it will never ever end.. and
that
nothing
would ever
feel better.)
fourth,
it was remembering
every single memory, every single moment you spent with him
(because that assures you that you must've meant
at least something to him, too)
fifth,
it was loving..
(and you find out that, hey! loving wasn't all about just him,
it was about you, too.)
sixth,
it was learning.
Learning that some things,
some people,
can only stay in a given time, yknow, to make room for other things,
and other people, too.
seventh,
it's this.
:)
hey, i'm fine without you pala..
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